Tried cocaine and NO2 balloons also become quite popular. I always told myself I would never try class A drugs but I folded like I did when I quit smoking weed. I took MDMA about 7 times at different events. Other drugs then followed a year later and I was partying every weekend. I told myself I wouldn't buy it and would only have a drag here and there- this failed and before I knew it I was smoking most nights and this eventually lead to smoking everyday at the same level as before. It reminded me of the times before when i smoked but without the issues of splitting up from my girlfriend. In a way I think I always had a different type of bond with the friends who smoked weed. Before I knew it I was having the occasional drag on a spliff. Before I knew it I was smoking a fag now and then with drinks and telling myself I would only have fags on a Friday with a pint at the pub. Some of my friends who never stopped smoking weed were still on the scene and although I do have lots of friends who don't smoke or smoke when drunk I ended up spending time with the ones that smoked weed.

I would sometimes have thoughts about smoking again and did sometimes feel like I was missing out on something when I wasn't smoking. These feelings of wanting to smoke continued even though I was fit healthy and stable after 4 months off the weedsmoke. Stupidly I thought I could control myself and started smoking the occasional cigar thinking it was cool and wouldn't lead to anything.

I totally forgot about smoking weed and felt amazing. In this time I even cycled Lands end to John O groats. I had really bad withdrawal and blamed my self for the breakup. With a lot of help from friends and focussing on exercise to make me feel good I managed to quit smoking for and stayed clean for 4 months. I went cold turkey and struggled beyond belief to comprehend what I had lost. I then gave up smoking as a result of this breakup. I still loved her very much still but she did the right thing and moved on. Our relationship ended when I was 27 mainly due to the cannabis ruling my life and for a few other reasons. This certainly made me feel better about myself and proved to be of great benefit when I tried to quit a few years later. Smoking continued and before I knew it my girlfriend was getting fed up about it and I was hiding it from her. I generally always tried to maintain a high level of exercise through out my smoking years. Friend groups changed but the smoking generally continued. This went on for 4 years and I moved over to smoking bud. Bongs and shotties were also used and we would smoke uoto 20 odd shotties per night. Initially I was smoking just hash and would smoke maybe 3 joints a day in the week and then maybe upto 6 on the weekends. A lot of my friends smoked weed and I was soon sucked into the concept of smoking it everyday. Hello All, So Its good to talk and think writing down my addiction will help me get free. So I started smoking when I was 16, just cigs until I was 20 when I started smoking cannabis.

My addiction story